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What a lovely essay all this bechaini has created. That may be its purpose. To reveal you to yourself... and offer insights and resonance to the reader.

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So beautifully said, Natasha. I couldn't have done this without the love and strength of Ochre Sky!

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I loved reading this! You have beautifully described that oh-so-relatable anxiety that has been my constant for such a long time! Thank you for sharing this, made me feel that I am not alone in my effort to overcome it, one step and one day at a time!

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Yes, always one step and one day at a time! Wish you strength and peace. Thank you for reading and sharing your words with me

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You know I recently learnt that the Sisyphus story is about consistency. That he showed up everyday and did what needed to be done even if the boulder didn't move up further. Somehow that reduced my anxiety. Thanks for this lovely essay- so much resonates

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Smriti ❤️❤️

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I suspect many will relate to what you've described so eloquently. And I hope writing this also helped you. The purpose you talk about in the end - recognising that is what takes a lot of strength.

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Thanks for your comment, Rohan. Writing about this has definitely helped me, this one coming after many different drafts on this topic.

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Love this so much. How tangible anxiety becomes when you put words to it, an angry person sitting on your neck, a plant with a seed. Thank you for this. I lived in intense anxiety for so long, and it's easy to go back even with all the tools and medication. This imagery helps.

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I’m all too familiar with this feeling and the physical manifestation and its refusal to leave. Thank you for writing with such honesty. ❤️🤗

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Sighh, you always have me ❤️🤗 take good care!

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❤️❤️

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The bechaini you describe and the physicality of it is gripping, Doel. I've been in that place and it lasted some years. Even now it's easier to access than I'd like. Thank you for speaking to it with such openness.

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